Mar 032005
 

I got an email from a nurse wanting to ask some questions for an upcoming seminar. Here is my response that I emailed back. Hopefully I was coherent, I’m just really not in the mood to proof read.


  1. How old were you when you first had symptoms?

26

  • How long between first symptoms and diagnosis?It was about a year because the symptom went into remission, and I just wrote it off.
  • What was first symptom?It was numb feet, which I just wrote off as being part of my flat feet.
  • What symptoms do you now or have experienced? What is the most difficult to personally deal with?I have been in remission for a while. The most difficult exacerbation was the one where I lost almost all control of my hands. This was the exacerbation when I was diagnosed, and it didn’t respond immediately to Solu-Medrol treatment. I was very concerned that it was going to leave me crippled, and unable to work and provide for my family. Here are some of the other symptoms I have experienced:
    • Pain – burning and throbbing. It is usually in my legs or arms, but occasionally I have had the burning on my back Highest pain level was a 5 on the 10 point scale. None of it response to OTC NSAIDS
    • Itching – on my arms
    • Motor Control – this was in my hands and forearms
    • Numbness – hands and feet
    • Acute Dizziness and Vertigo
    • Loss of hearing – this happened half way in on my exacerbation when I was diagnosed. Almost deaf in my left ear, and very diminished ability in my right ear
    • Location Specific Essential Tremor – this has become less severe but is still present
    • Acute fatigue. This has happened a couple of times but not for a couple of months.
    • Depression. I attribute to either a lesion or the Rebif because I am not upset about the MS, and its progression anymore.
  • Do you converse with any other people with MS? What is the main focus with discussions?Yes. Those that communicate via email are typically those that are newly diagnosed, or their families, and have specific questions regarding their symptoms. The major interaction is through the blog where there are discussions regarding my symptoms, news items, or treatments on the horizon. Of course the atmosphere of my blog seems to be more of a support nature and so it is unusual that someone will disagree with me, which is too bad.
  • Describe your feelings with MS? ( This is my most important question, as I want to bring into the science of my presentation the humanistic perspective….beyond the body into the heart and spirit)Mostly the MS has fallen into the background and just part of everyday life. The exacerbations can be frustrating as can be taking the Rebif. I don’t really have an emotional response to MS any longer, I must have gotten my catharsis all out with the really large exacerbation.
  • What would be the most important piece of information you would like me to share at the seminar..There will be upwards to 40 medical professionals- nurses, therapists, social workers, and administrators and I will be inviting some staff from the MS Society.There seem to be two general responses to MS. There are those that take it in, make a few adjustments to their life, and just go on living. The others seem to think it is too much and never seem to cope with having the disease, regardless of the severity of the MS progression.

    I think the worst part of having MS is the unknown. Since the pathology is so individual even within the same type of MS (e.g. relapsing-remitting) that can breed a lot of stress. I think injecting a placebo would be helpful, just for the thought that “something” is being done to help.

  • If there are any other people or sources you know of to help me convey this perspective I would be most grateful. Any blog areas you know of Erik that may be helpful that I could tap into?There are other blogs that are listed on the right side of my blog, all of those people have been diagnosed with MS. You might also want to try the Usenet group alt.support.mult-sclerosis – though it has been a while since I have been there. I’ll also post these answers to my blog (http://blog.thesmithlife.com), maybe someone else will have some additional insight.